Friends

I think that I have figured it out.  The reason why I do not have friends that is.  I am not a "yes" person.  I do not agree with people just to agree.  If I have an opinion that differs, then I will voice it.  Who ever said that we had to think alike?  Also, I am real, not fake.  I call it like I see it.  No Bull shit.  Life is too short for that crap.  I would rather not have any friends and be true to myself than to have tons of friends and live a lie.  I am who I am, and I make no apologies for it.  I do not hurt anyone, and I never will, but I do not understand why those who do seem to have more friends than I?  Funny how that works.  All I can say is, there is not much that I regret, nor many words that I retract.  I am not perfect by any means, but I have learned from my past mistakes, and I strive to make me a better me every day.  Not that I was ever a bad me, but I was not the best me.  On my way to figuring this all out though, I realized that I did and said allot of things just to be liked, and mostly by all the wrong people.  I got rid of that old me and ultimately all of them.  Seems being a good you and being good to you can sometimes lead to being alone.  Yet I am not lonely.  One can be alone without being lonely, go figure.  As I said, I would rather not have any friends and be true to myself than to have tons of friends and live a lie.